I had been doing something for the whole long weekend... Converting all my old photos to digital.And I found some pretty amazing pictures, some of which forgotten that they exist! haha.. Here's one for the record:
This was me when I am prob a year old or so... haha... Will be uploading some of the more recent pictures online since my friends are also captured in them... but for the few childhood photos that I had, will only show it to the guests of my wedding.. which I am not sure when... hehe..
The show is really nice. I like to watch such shows when they talked about kinship and what can happen within a big family. Some of the characters may seem to be not from this world, whether they are either too good or evil to be real... But I can tell you from my personal experiences that such characters do exist within a family.
This is the song from the show that I liked a lot:
Ok, I am going to post some music videos again... Someone who read my (hardly updated) blog commented why I like to post such things? Nothing much to do with my life what? Well, that shows you dun know me well only... I listen to songs that reflect my feelings at the point of time.... :)
This is another 2 versions of this song that I liked alot. But I need to put a disclaimer first... The meaning of this song is talking about how we regret not holding on to the lost love. It must be written by someone who had seen his/her ex with a new love. This kind of feeling is will only come when you still do not have a new love in your life... So this feeling is not not a true reflection of how much you love your ex... hehe...
And the original Faye Wong's Cantonese version. This is a better reflection of how one should feel when love is lost... Don't hold on to it... :)
Most of us may not realise it but everytime we gain something, we lose something...
And a lot of time, it is about what we are willing to lose in order to gain. Most people will choose to retain and yet wanna gain... The world does not work that way...
The first time I heard this song was when I attended a friend's birthday at a KTV. I liked this song immediately but I was too high to rem the name... haha... Now that I know liao, I am going to sing it the next time I go to karaoke... :)
How hard it is for us to let go of something we hold dearly once? Like a cigarette for a smoker? Or a pet dog for dog lovers? Or simply that someone who had been, maybe even will be, someone whom you feel dearly for?
Now, it can be the love for a family member. It can be the love for a best friend. It can be the love for a partner... Whichever it is, it is not easy to let go.
I had figured out long ago why is it so difficult to let go of things? Because, we are very afraid that if we let it go, there will be this humongous void in our life that we do not know what to fill with... It is like cutting a pound of flesh from your body. Or it can be more painful than that...
Some people cannot take the agony and thus choose to escape... Maybe by getting drunk all the time, maybe by shutting oneself out from everything, maybe even by ending his/her life.
But then for most people, we simply adapt to the void and start to fill it with something else... Maybe pick up a sport? Maybe find a new pet? Maybe get a new partner? Maybe even turn gay... hahaha...
But there's something else that is very scary, especially when you are going through the "withdrawal syndrome". Thoughts such as maybe we should get back together. But then if we get back, what's next? Fight again? What happen if I decide to turn back, he/she already turned to someone else and there is no more room for me?
My personal opinion is, if both parties cannot sort out the fundermental reasons why we ended up in such a state, it is never wise to even think about getting back together. At least, both parties must agree that we want to work it out. And not just get back together and pretend that things are back to normal... That's is the most dangerous situation. The next time you fall out, it will be uglier.
And what's with your ex-partner finding someone else? Remember this, there's always someone out there that is better than you and more suitable for him/her. In the same manner, there is always someone out there that is better than him/her. For those of us in the corporate world, it is the same situation. Does it mean if you do not get a promotion, it means you are no good? More likely, it is because there is someone better than you. There's nothing to argue or even worry about... Why not focus on making the effort to do all your can while you are in it rather than start thinking why your effort is not reciprocated?
Even if you really have to let go... just be glad that you have been there... And start to look forward... maybe to the same thing but this time round, get things done right...
I went to the doc that my mum suggested after work today... Full of hope that this guy can do some mirace to my LUMP.
Was there on time and he looked at it and said: "That's BAD! Ok, you have 2 choices now... I can do it for you but you may have a scar on your lid. Or you can go A&E at TTSH or SGH and have them do it on you more professionally."
I choose the latter... and he is nice enough to say I will not charge you since there is no real consultation...
So I walked back to my car and started my engine... then I feel something funny...my left eye like machiam tearing... I looked into the mirror and OMG! The LUMP broke! must be the doctor stretched the skin earlier...
So I went back to tell them that might as well he do it for me since the LUMP already broke. But then, he just pricked the LUMP further and asked me to squeeze out myself!!! Whatever lah! I dun think I wanna go through too much pain... so there I was, sitting at a corner of the clinic... squeeze my own pus out... Sigh...
After I thought the worst should be over, he asked to see the antibiotics that I had been prescibed... So I walked back to the car to retreive my medicine and walked back to the clinic... He looked at it and said that it is not strong enough... He will prescribed another type for me. And I should be eating 2 types of antibiotics!!!
OMG!!! That means another week of minimum or NO drinking for me! Sigh... Before I go, he said if the antibiotics is not good enough to remove the LUMP totally, can go back to him and ask for more?!?!??! SIAO!!!!
The swell on my eyelid reduced to a LUMP now... My mum suggest that I visit this doctor who is supposingly very good with such things to have the lump "removed"... That means puncture the THING and drain out the pus... The tot of the procedures makes my legs weak... I SCARED OF PAIN!!! :(
How coincidently that I am experiencing the many first time in my life all in one week... I had mentioned about me being trapped in the lift... then today, my left eyelid swell due to "Bak Chiam"... another first as I never had this before!!!
So here I am alone at home... typing this message... and... well, I almost made my maiden road trip to malacca tomorrow... haha... yeh, almost... it will be the first time I drive to Malacca. (Had driven to KL before)
Why did I suddenly had that urge... It all started on Tuesday when I was watching some variety show on Channel 8. They are introducing food from Malayia and this episode that I watched is about good food in Malacca... And 1 particular restaurant caught my eyes... Capitol Satay Celup!!!
It is basically steamboat with Satay Sauce. Nothing new actually... We have this one in a shop in Tanjong Katong. But the Capitol shop had the food on skewers! And it really reminded me of the days when I used to party in JB or KL... I will just walk out when I am hungry and they will have this "Lok Lok" stalls near the nightspots... I will just go and pick what I want and cook it and then dip it in some sauce to at it! Yummy!!!
Ok ok, back to Capitol Satay Celup. So there is this famous dish in Malacca and only unique to Malacca. Base on my research, Capitol serve the best Satay Celup. There are many others in Malacca but I think I will go try Capitol first. Oh, there is even this site that term Satay Celup as "Satay Fondue"... hahaha... Well, let me post come pictures to show you just how yummy it looks...
See liao also shiok right? Ok now, I will need to plan who to go with and when... :)
Today, I decided to leave office early... or rather just leaving on time... hehe... tot I can get home early to have dinner and prepare for tomorrow. I even decide to drop by Thomson Plaza to buy wine as I had some wine for the last 2 days and the feeling was terrific when I wake up the next morning.
So I thought might as well buy some wine since my sis and her husband is also coming home for dinner... In the end, bought 2 bottles.
Then I happily get on my way home and happily parked my car and happily get into the lift... then the unexpected happened! The lift got stuck on its way up!!! OMG!!! This is the first time I got stuck in a lift in all my 31+ years of life!
But being the me, I did not panick or what... I calmly took out my phone and see if got signal.. Got! Good... Next I dial the emergency hotline to call for help. Then I sms my sis to say I stuck in the lift... She came over with her husband and tried to force the lift door open... No use.. Told them to go home and wait for me...
So... there I was in the lift, stuck... wondering what should I do... Should I juz sit down and take out my laptop to read some document? Maybe I can even get some wireless signal and serve the net? haha... All sorts of funny tots went through my mind on what I should do.. But in the end, I did nothing but stood there and waited... Yes, stook there and waited. Cuz I am in my new pants and a plain white shirt.. so decided not to do anything that may dirty my clothings... haha... vain right?
Well, the whole waiting game lasted about 30 mins. The rescue team came and got me out in less than a min... I came out, thank the guys, and happily walked to my house... and happily told me sis to chill the wine, and happily had my dinner, and happily enjoying my wine after dinner... haha...
I refused to let that tiny episode spoil my mood as I am preparing for the BIG thing tomorrow... I need to be in my best shape and mood for it! Make it or stay put, it's all up to how I perform tomorrow... :)
Don't let the tiny hiccups in your life disrupt your life... :)
If anyone of you who had an unfortunate experience of losing your partner to another guy or girl, and you feel that it's the end of the world, so unfair, bitter, devastated, or however lousy you felt...
Try this... Losing your partner to a dog, or 2 dogs for that matter... You will not even know how or what to feel...
Reading the title of this entry may make you think that I am feeling very insecure... actually no. I am seldom insecure about myself, if I ever felt insecure in the first place.
But I tend to give the ger beside me a sense of insecurity... SO far, they will either tell me explicitly or say things to illustrate that... Why leh? I had been wondering...
Am I: 1) wild at heart by nature? 2) very reluctant to be tied down or commit? 3) too playful? 4) too much of a party animal? 5) uncontorllable when I am high?
I asked myself all of the above and my answer is YES to every question... sigh... That should pretty much explains everything... haha!
This is a bloody warm sunday man... I went out to AMK juz now and I was sweating like a pig when I stop to look at something for awhile...
Anyway, woke at ard 10am today and went lunch with my darling. We ate at Food Republic at Vivo... Now I know why ppl bother to write into the Straits Times forum to say that the prices there are ridiculous... Becuz they really are... hahaha...
We went to jalan jalan after lunch and I almost... very close... just an inch away from buying a new PC... she pulled me away... sigh... anyway, save some money lor.. and she is right, i dun really need a new PC... haha
Then came home and tried to create that presentation pack to be used for the training next week... do here do there also never really do much... It had been quite an eventful week for me... almost let go of what i hold dearest now... got informed that i am not selected for the job that i applied for... got accused of having a love bite on my neck... well... i guess it is just one of those days that things dun go well...
Talking abt love bite (or hicky), I really hate it... if any ger tried to do that to me, i will not give any face and scold... it's so... yesterday liao! gone are those days where it is a sign that you "own" the other person... it's so uncool! so there is no way you can find a love bite on me!
Ok, back to what I am suppose to do... Still not even half way through... then I started to surf the web... and I found this... This ger is wonderful doing cover version of all the songs...
Many moons ago, a (seemingly highly enlightened) girl friend of mine told me this: "You can crush a guy's balls, but never crush his ego". I do not know if she had read this from somewhere but well, this statement is not without merits...
I never really understood why the director of this MTV scripted it this way... the song itself is a really nice song but then the plot of the MTV is too extreme... Anyway, just sharing a song which I like a lot...
It has been a rather exciting 2 weeks for me. Many opportunities are opening up which I am actively exploring. And I also got a rather rude shock on Saturday when I attended a chalet party. Some things are just not what it seem on the surface. And basically what you see in shows do actually happen in real life, and so close to you sometimes. And I got to know new friends and managed to catch up with some old friends as well.
Well, me being me, I am still lagging behind in catching up with some close friends which I am trying to do before i go for my in-camp training next week.
Well, I had already done what I should do. Now I just have to wait. And yes, the in-camp training certainly may not help things but then, good things always dun happen at the right time. At least, it is true for me. The last few times I made major moves in my life, events like in-camp training or exams almost got in the way.
I will just have to manage the situation and make the best out of it. At the end of the day, things happen for a reason. Even when things dun happen, it may be for the better as well. :)
I have many things on my mind but I dunno what to or how to write... It's going in circle... Juz like I am happy that I am sad... but I am sad that I am happy...
Juz came back from KL... While we had planned for this to be a chill out trip, everyone of us returned to be more tired... haha...
Well, things didn't turn out like it should be as always... was planning to reached KL by 7 plus, shower and out partying... ended up we only reach close to 9pm... totally shacked out with the journey... and rushed to buy all the Calsberg available at the Sundry shop at our apartment before it closed... So we decided to stay in instead and finish 12 bottles before turning in...
Then woke up the next day and ate a very lousy breakfast at the lounge... Did not expect the breakfast to be so lousy in Ascott... So much worse than Sunway... and we are paying 3 times the price I would have paid for a stay in Sunway...
Played Monopoly until lunch... then played Uno Stacko till we all tired and sleep again. Ordered food to be delivered... The dinner was yummy... and all of us prepared to paint the town red... but then my friend fell over a BIG slab of concrete at the busstop!!! That spells the end of the night... Went to this new place my friend recommended... Not too bad but most of us already not in the mood for party... wanted to check out Aloha... One of the most happening place in Bukit Bintang but the rain starts pouring and we are not too ready to queue in the rain... so went back and I went to the pub below our appt to take-away a bottle of red wine and beer!!! That's a first for me... hahaha....
Anyway, drank until tired then slept... Woke up today and wanted to do some shopping... Bought a pair of shoe... After buying then think why did I buy that for? My shoes are all in good condition... hahaha... Anyway, the trip back was relatively fast compared to the journey there... Wanted to drink soup at Dian Xiao Er and you know what? They ran out of soup!!! And they ran out of many popular dishes as well!!! Sigh... Luckily they still have the roast duck... else I would have walked out of that place immediately... Then wanted to take a cab home and the queue is long with no cab... so no choice, call cab and finally home ard 10...
Well well, this trip will be memorable but certainly things could have gone better in many sense... Tomolo is another long day....
I will be off to Bintan tomorrow. I dunno why but for all business trip that I make, I will always have to wake up very early in the morning... When I used to fly to KL previously, I always need to wake up at 4am... fxxk... now go Bintan also have to wake up at 6.45am... sigh... anyway, will have plenty of time for me to catch nap while waiting for everything to start...
Nope, not my life... but my schedule... I just tried to squeeze too many things in to whatever limited time I have....
Let's see what I have to do this week:
Monday - Full day packed with meetings and rehearsal for Sales Conference... My colleague already booked me until 7 or 8pm
Tuesday - Need to finalise a process. Then it's rehearsal again... Then I am going to see a show at 7pm... I will have to leave office ontime in order to make that timing
Wednesday - Morning weekly managers' meeting, followed by Lo-Hei Lunch, followed by more meetings, followed by Lo-Hei dinner, followed by Salsa class
Thursday - Off to Bintan for Sales Conference (Had planned for the Lo-Hei Dinner on this day without realising I am not in SG)
Friday - In Bintan for Sales Conference (Plan to go KL straight after returning in the evening)
Saturday - Either in KL or at home catching up on emails from the last 2 days
Sunday - Just agreed with my family to have dinner at East Coast (if I am not in KL)
Someone close to me asked me why I like to pack my time up to the brim... actually that is not exactly true... I sometimes slack at home the whole day... haha... But as we age, you will realise that you have so many things to do but so little time... Like now... I just finished a presentation pack and typing this now... (and listening to 不能說的秘密 again and again.. I juz love this song) haha..
and this verse is my fav until today... It perfectly describe the feeling one has when trying to let go... :) 每一件不得不放手的玩具 總算帶來過快樂 每一段不得不完結的關系 只是一種選擇 如果美好記憶 還算難忘 為什么 還會記得悲傷
握你的手
遥远的她
至少还有你 (Cover Version. This get is quite talented but I would sing the Nicholas Xie version)
Many people actual dunno that I can sing quite a bit... cuz they only always see me partying or getting drunk somewhere... Later, it is salsa and party only. But before i even started partying, I was quite into singing and would visit karaoke pubs about 2 or 3 times a week. Cuz my friends all like to go. And it was quite nerve wrecking initally but I even managed to sing in the hall in public... And I was also quite surprise that I can sing... cuz I always sound very low tone over the mic... haha..
So here are some songs which I can do fairly well, from older ones which I sang in the past...
I had my birthday celebration @ Union Square on 14 Dec 2007... It was supposed to be a surprise but I had my sources so actually I knew about it since Wednesday... haha..
While i warned everyone that I am not going to do the tradional birthday dance, they arranged it anyway... luckily, still got gers come dance with me... hehe
By the time they called me onto the dance floor, I was already quite high... and I do not really think about this dance until XiaoQiang sent me the link... The more I looked at it (and this is only the second time), the more I wanna find a hole to hide...
Anyway, most of my drinking buddies all turned up... haha.. was so happy to drink with them again... and after the dance, they sang a birthday song for me... My QAD even bought me a cake... Thank you so much!!!
And as usual, my brain stopped recording after a certain time... (All these were pieced together after I asked many people) Apparently, I opened a second bottle and I dunno how much I drink then we decided to go somewhere else to party. But then dunno who said wanna have supper and I ended eating a plate of bee hoon goreng (dunno if I told the ah bang that dun add mutton) and then they said I just stood up and went home. They said they wanted to send me home but I just stood up, walk to a cab and hop in... haha...
This is such a nice song! I can sing it if it is the first song i sing for the night... haha...
This is the live version... Somehow they did not sing it as well... And you can hear Lara is actually singing at one key down... that goes to show whether she can actually sing or not... haha...
I am actually very tired now cuz i drank until 5 plus yesterday... dun even know how i got home... think my QAD send me back or I come back myself...
Went to my friend's place. It's an annual affair and also the only time we gamble with each other... last year, i made a good killing there... but this year i lost $300... sigh... that would be one bottle tonight liao... :(
Was juz surfing and decide to take down all my fav songs from Youtube.
I am sad but I have to smile... I don't wanna give up but I have to move on... I love her but I have to leave... I am tired but I don't want to sleep... I want to get drunk but I can't... I am raging insane inside me but I have to be sane...
