Sleep deprival...

I will be off to Bintan tomorrow. I dunno why but for all business trip that I make, I will always have to wake up very early in the morning... When I used to fly to KL previously, I always need to wake up at 4am... fxxk... now go Bintan also have to wake up at 6.45am... sigh... anyway, will have plenty of time for me to catch nap while waiting for everything to start...

I am so screwed...

Nope, not my life... but my schedule... I just tried to squeeze too many things in to whatever limited time I have....

Let's see what I have to do this week:

Monday - Full day packed with meetings and rehearsal for Sales Conference... My colleague already booked me until 7 or 8pm

Tuesday - Need to finalise a process. Then it's rehearsal again... Then I am going to see a show at 7pm... I will have to leave office ontime in order to make that timing

Wednesday - Morning weekly managers' meeting, followed by Lo-Hei Lunch, followed by more meetings, followed by Lo-Hei dinner, followed by Salsa class

Thursday - Off to Bintan for Sales Conference (Had planned for the Lo-Hei Dinner on this day without realising I am not in SG)

Friday - In Bintan for Sales Conference (Plan to go KL straight after returning in the evening)

Saturday - Either in KL or at home catching up on emails from the last 2 days

Sunday - Just agreed with my family to have dinner at East Coast (if I am not in KL)

Someone close to me asked me why I like to pack my time up to the brim... actually that is not exactly true... I sometimes slack at home the whole day... haha... But as we age, you will realise that you have so many things to do but so little time... Like now... I just finished a presentation pack and typing this now... (and listening to 不能說的秘密 again and again.. I juz love this song) haha..

Songs I like but cannot sing well or dun even dare attempt

一了百了



安静



香水有毒



有多少愛可以重來



我應該



黃昏



趁早



一人一半

Newer songs I like to sing

我不夠愛你



不如這樣



and this verse is my fav until today... It perfectly describe the feeling one has when trying to let go... :)
每一件不得不放手的玩具
總算帶來過快樂
每一段不得不完結的關系
只是一種選擇
如果美好記憶 還算難忘
為什么 還會記得悲傷


握你的手



遥远的她



至少还有你 (Cover Version. This get is quite talented but I would sing the Nicholas Xie version)



手放开



最近



寂寞邊界



我真的以為

Songs I like to sing

Many people actual dunno that I can sing quite a bit... cuz they only always see me partying or getting drunk somewhere... Later, it is salsa and party only. But before i even started partying, I was quite into singing and would visit karaoke pubs about 2 or 3 times a week. Cuz my friends all like to go. And it was quite nerve wrecking initally but I even managed to sing in the hall in public... And I was also quite surprise that I can sing... cuz I always sound very low tone over the mic... haha..

So here are some songs which I can do fairly well, from older ones which I sang in the past...

如果這是我愛你最好的距離



冰雨



每次醒來



忘了隱藏



愛和承若

Birthday 2007 @ Union

I had my birthday celebration @ Union Square on 14 Dec 2007... It was supposed to be a surprise but I had my sources so actually I knew about it since Wednesday... haha..

While i warned everyone that I am not going to do the tradional birthday dance, they arranged it anyway... luckily, still got gers come dance with me... hehe

By the time they called me onto the dance floor, I was already quite high... and I do not really think about this dance until XiaoQiang sent me the link... The more I looked at it (and this is only the second time), the more I wanna find a hole to hide...



Anyway, most of my drinking buddies all turned up... haha.. was so happy to drink with them again... and after the dance, they sang a birthday song for me... My QAD even bought me a cake... Thank you so much!!!

And as usual, my brain stopped recording after a certain time... (All these were pieced together after I asked many people) Apparently, I opened a second bottle and I dunno how much I drink then we decided to go somewhere else to party. But then dunno who said wanna have supper and I ended eating a plate of bee hoon goreng (dunno if I told the ah bang that dun add mutton) and then they said I just stood up and went home. They said they wanted to send me home but I just stood up, walk to a cab and hop in... haha...

Well overall, I had a very enjoyable night... :)

珊瑚海

This is such a nice song! I can sing it if it is the first song i sing for the night... haha...



This is the live version... Somehow they did not sing it as well... And you can hear Lara is actually singing at one key down... that goes to show whether she can actually sing or not... haha...

不能說的秘密

I am actually very tired now cuz i drank until 5 plus yesterday... dun even know how i got home... think my QAD send me back or I come back myself...

Went to my friend's place. It's an annual affair and also the only time we gamble with each other... last year, i made a good killing there... but this year i lost $300... sigh... that would be one bottle tonight liao... :(

Was juz surfing and decide to take down all my fav songs from Youtube.

不甘心不放手

This song has been playing in my car on repeat mode for the past few days liao... It sums up how I feeling now...
　

不在執著於昨天的癡狂
我的心像是台北的街頭
不知道該往那裡走

你的心像閃爍的霓虹
叫人迷戀卻也迷惑
我沒有把握


誰在慫恿夜的脆弱
撫平的傷又隱隱作痛
是誰說過不在回頭
還是讓你淹沒了我(將我淹沒)

想放棄卻不能甘心放手
留你在夢中,卻哭痛了我
等著傷心不如學會承受
反正你不會是我的

想放棄卻不能甘心放手
留你在夢中,卻哭痛了我
等著傷心不如先忘記你
反正離開你的是我

Ironies

I was inspired to write again after I saw a friend's blog... :)

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I am sad but I have to smile...
I don't wanna give up but I have to move on...
I love her but I have to leave...
I am tired but I don't want to sleep...
I want to get drunk but I can't...
I am raging insane inside me but I have to be sane...